so far, i’ve lost a little over 75 pounds.
that’s a shitload of weight, if i do say so myself. i’m far from done too and have at least 50 more pounds to go. i felt like sharing some of the things i’ve learned about myself during this process.
1. boy, do old habits run deep.
i kind of pride myself on remaining relevant. whatever the hell that means… i guess i never wanted to be one of those people that gets stuck in their way and goes through life on auto-pilot. and, i’m not. but this process i’ve been through has taught me how important it is to recognize a negative pattern and revise it. revising it means evolving your thinking and replacing that habit with something else.
let’s think about that negative habit. it may not be something your spouse or family think is negative – it may not be “bad” in the world’s eyes – but for YOU and your new vision of yourself, it’s not good. i’ve needed to lay down the law to myself. here are some of my bad habits:
* mindless snacking. i now share an office with my team in a big room because i’ll be commuting from dallas to detroit each week except for two days. so i gave up my office. so my team-mates are probably snickering right now because they have witnessed this first hand. mindless snacking to me is having my hand in a popcorn bag 24/7 because i’m typing and thinking and writing and talking and my hands/brain always have to be doing something. damnit to hell. hate that! because i recognize that, my solution is to drink more water instead and walk more. i also track all the mindless shoving of snacks in my mouth in myfitnesspal app and punish myself with watching the calories add up.
* exercising. losing over 75 pounds makes exercising a lot easier. and this is what i’ve learned. my body WANTS to move. all the time. my energy level is so high now that exercise is almost a given. but my negative habit is deeply, deeply engrained into my head. and that is “i just don’t exercise”. never have, never will. boooorrring. it was not stressed growing up and i do not stress it to myself. when i played tennis in high school i used to do everything possible to get out of the sprints and the running. i used to HIDE IN THE TENNIS CURTAIN! <confession> so turning around this thinking is really hard. when you tell yourself something that “you’re just not this or you just don’t do that” it is really debilitating. so i just do it now. i tell myself “i am a walker” and that I love to move. and i’m starting to believe it!
2. all the things they tell you to do on a diet really do work.
the simple things like drink a lot of water, eat protein, chew small bites, eat slowly, get daily exercise and avoiding processed food. all that works and works really well. it took a lot for me to learn that – a lot. but one way i’ve lost the weight is focusing on these things.
3. forget vanity, life is much better minus the weight.
life really is that much better now that i’m lighter. i’m just being honest. this has nothing to do with trying to fit in because fitting in, to me, is so easy and extremely boring and un-creative. <had to get that in>.
but something i’ve learned is that the mean-girl voice in my head has gone away. you know, that inside voice that said things that kept me down + held me back. all that conflict is gone. poof-bam-blitz! and on top of that, getting dressed for work in the morning is a lot more fun.
4. just get through it.
it’s been a long journey, i’m still on it and always will be. it’s amazing what you can do just by telling yourself to get through it. tomorrow is a new day and i want to be in a new place. it’s not as simple as it sounds. but no matter what you’re going through, you’ve got to hope that tomorrow will be different. so push through, endure + persevere.
thanks for reading!
